Monday, December 28, 2009

i will be pulling the plug on this thing,

sort of...
mrs. picturesofdetroit and myself will be moving,
moving up,
moving on,
making changes,
making moves,
gonna have to go offline for a couple of days,
disconnected,
out of reach,
out of touch,
moving the command post,
the beat laboratory,
the office,
you get the idea...

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Sunday, December 6, 2009

the idea was born

shared
and discussed
but it was put on hold
like most good ideas, it died
there were bigger fish to fry
new places
locations
state lines
so we took to the air
the open road…
months later
the idea found new life
continued life
the end result was glamorized
dreamt about
talked about
the idea was gaining momentum
steam
some phone calls were in order
some moves were made
some goods borrowed
some items-
just had to be purchased
and we were well on our way to
making a photograph….

the morning arrived
and the anticipation levels were high
fears were felt
hopes were accounted for
hard work
hard labor
a little bit of cash
and some quad espressos
and we were off
6 am
7 am
armfuls of gear
garbage bags
tote bags
camera bags
the darkness of the december morning
suddenly came alive
7 flights of stairs
and the air was thick
chilled
the load was heavy
the reward was greater
so on we went….
4 hours later
the stage was set
the lighting just right
a christmas tree
a television
and an old worn out lamp-
the idea had come to fruition
to life
the lights were on!
again
christmas was alive inside of an abandoned building
an abandoned apartment
alive and well and breathing
the glow was magnificent
warm
but soft
and the colored lights of our charlie brown christmas tree
were beautiful…

several hours later and i am home
reflecting
pontificating
very pleased with myself
ourselves
and i know now
that from this moment
forward
until the day that i die
i will never forget the feeling that
filled my heart, when
those lights turned on
that tv
turned on
the moment when we brought christmas back
and my only regret
is that there wasn’t enough room
inside of that tiny abandoned apartment
for the rest of the world
to watch
and enjoy
and feel the light wash over their souls
their hearts….

perhaps it was better this way
just the two of us
and tonight
I will sleep well
comforted by doing
comforted by being

christmas
is alive
and well
in detroit…


big thanks to john...

Saturday, December 5, 2009

i stabbed a guy about 19 years ago,

through the door of his ford pick up truck
it was one of those combo hunting knives
that you get from Gibraltar Trade Center
you know the kind
with the compass on the end,
that unscrews
and there's matches inside
maybe a file
or tooth pick
you get the idea
well, the blade on the Rambo knife was about 10 inches long
i jumped out of the truck
and i started stabbing his door
in an underhand type of motion
plunge after thrust after plunge
and finally....
"ouch! i'm hit!!!"
and he got the fuck out of there
i'll never forget the look on his face
anyway
i wasn't trying to stab him;
see,
he was chasing me
through a Handy Dandy parking lot
and i got scared
so i jumped out
with the knife
you've already heard what happened,
fast forward-------
i ended up in a boot camp
90 days
only 8 of us made it the entire 90 days
the rest, off to serve their sentence
mine would have been pretty serious
they don't really like it
when you stab a motherfucker
through his car door
in a parking lot,
now do they?




Thursday, December 3, 2009

i take my mother grocery shopping about once a month

today
i ran in to a guy from the old neighborhood
delray
he was older then me
about 10 years or so
we'll call him terry
he was a twin
his brother- we will call larry
anyway
they were pretty cool guys
factory workers
hard drinkers
i was 13
and terry smoked a joint with me
it was his joint
it was my first time
i got really high
which made him really nervous
he told me not to let anyone know
especially my mother
and i left....
20 some years later
and i think he might have fired one up today, but
it's been years since i have smoked a joint
so we exchanged some stories
and that was it

terry and i said goodbye...

Thursday, November 26, 2009

today is thankgiving

and it only took us 23 minutes to locate the giblets
the neck has been removed
and the bird is cooking....
hmmm
the packers (i mean the lions) game is about to begin
i can only hope
that i will rise from my slumber
in approximately 3 hours
and the lions will have the game
the turkey will be all but done
and i will be moments away from-
from-
from-
another nap
pfffft

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

they were advertising black friday

on monday
what color is monday
tuesday
today is wednesday
and it seems kind of gray
tomorrow
is thanksgiving
and that's a deifferent story
turkey
and a second helping
possibly thirds
football
and the lions
black friday
tomorrow i will be drunk on self righteousness
and olive juice
maybe a cheeseball
and mashed potatoes
black friday

but on thursday
i will nap
maybe twice
and i will dream of all the things
that i will not buy
stores;
that i will not go to
i can only hope that next year
they begin to advertise black friday
a week and a half early
60% off
we pay the sales tax
no interest until you die
we'll help you load it in to your car
and if you come to our store at 4:30 AM
and stand in line
we'll suck your dick
and your balls
please buy our merchandise
we offer cock sucking
and ball licking
and if you go on to our website
we'll stick a finger in your ass too....
brown friday
pink saturday
blehhhh...

Saturday, November 21, 2009

i have no words

only pictures
pictures of detroit
abandoned detroit
lost detroit
you get the idea...



Wednesday, November 18, 2009

i went to jail recently

for being in a building that i was not supposed to be in
(should i end a sentence with the word 'in')
anyway
these photos are not from that jail cell
or from said building
they are from another building
another jail
this would have been some pretty fucked up shit
to do to somebody,

whatever...



Monday, November 16, 2009

my friend told me that he wanted to shave his moustache

he said that it might be draining him
of his powers
his strength...
it reminded me of a movie i watched recently
i couldn't turn away
normally
i cant stand movies with sub titles
but this one kept me interested
anyway...

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Monday, November 9, 2009

Thursday, November 5, 2009

i just woke up from a nap

it's 8:10 PM
and it has been dark for at least 2 1/2 hours now
it will likely be dark for the rest of the night
for most of the next 4 months
it's 8:11
and i am pretty fuckin sad...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

the darkness that is 6:30 PM has me here,

and that sounds like the gayest fucking teenage
angst filled rock ballad ever contrived
but- it is true
6:31
32
still here
clutching my chest in my hands
like a dying man
a desperate man
depressed
and alone-
hungry
angry
lonely
tired
aware of what is waiting for me
out there
several months of this;
darkness
cold grey skies
autumn
and then winter
november
december
january
february-
waiting
still waiting
6:35
36
fuck
shit
fuck!

Monday, November 2, 2009

the lafayette building is being torn down

demolished
another parking lot, perhaps
a missing tooth in detroit's smile
fuck it
we don't need it anymore
tear it down
tear it down
tear it down...

Sunday, November 1, 2009

i am gonna try and do a better job

in novemeber
in december
of posting on my blog
finish the year out strong
start over next year
on a high note
yeah
anyway,
the vikings are beating the packers
back out in to the living room
in to the world
yeah
a better job
whatever...

Saturday, October 31, 2009

game 3 of this year's world series

is in a rain delay
so i am here
posting
pictures of the tiger stadium demolition
gone now
one of the greatest ballparks ever built
ever destroyed
a lot of history
gone now
instead
we have a corporate ferris wheel food court behemoth
that is neither good for watching baseball
or for playing baseball
having said that...
back to the living room
waiting
raining
it's october...










Monday, October 19, 2009

went in for an MRI today

never had one before
so i wasn't really sure what to expect
the noise startled me
but i pretty much fell asleep after about 15 minutes-
i started to imagine that the sound
was some type of emergency siren
or horn
evacuation
i had to grab everything that was dear to me
so i grabbed my wife
my dog
and my digital files

i had time left
to spare
you see, i didn't have any money to grab
no 401k
no stocks
or bonds
or papers of any kind for that matter
hit hard by this recession
i am almost a "ghost"
as my friend would put it
off the grid
the radar,
evacuation
and all i have besides my wife and dog
are a bunch of fuckin' dvd's
filled with photographs
my art
my joy

m
r
i

Magnetic
Resonance
Imaging

drifting off to sleep
to somewhere else
not better
just different
sometimes
that's all i can really ask for
hope for
a break from this
from myself
my thoughts
my mind
my choices
all of my poor decisions

m
r
i

and just like that it was over,
more abruptly then it all began
and then i walked out of there
back out in to the world , that
i was trying to get away from
and instantly,

i was alone with myself...

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

packing my suitcase...

our most ambitious trip yet!
for now,
some pictures of an abandoned mental hospital...