Friday, October 1, 2010

life happens slowly

i had so much to say
here
but it has all escaped me
lost
in this day
today
life happens slowly
i had such a great line, to insert
here
but it has escaped me
life crawls sometimes
mostly through the bad times
the winters
the nights
never when you're doing well
or making a shitload of money
that's when life passes you by-
it's more like when you're fucking up
drinking
smoking
sticking needles in to your arm
that's when life slows down
grinds to a fucking halt
and everything is magnified
it takes pain
and suffering
life happens slowly
i had such a great line to insert right here
and here
so slowly
eating shitty food from a soup kitchen
sleeping on some fuckin' junky's couch
it takes lice
and hemorrhoids
it takes bad skin
bad teeth
it happens slowly
i don't know about you
but i had to go out and create some hurt
before i could learn any lessons
pain has motivated me
brought me here
in front of this monitor
inserting lines
slowly
and i'm not talking about
some girl breaking your heart
or getting ripped off
life happens slower than that
harder
then that
it's more like losing a career
or a house
or your daughter hating you
it's more like your parents dying
or herpes
or your best friend fucking your old lady:
that's life,
happening slowly
and it's magnified by
all of the careless mistakes
the ones that could have been so easily avoided
man
i had such a great line to insert right there

but what the fuck do i know
life happens slow
and it can't be manufactured
or glamorized
it has to be lived
each day
each moment
all the mistakes
the gods
the hospitals
the dry heaves
and fucked up skin
life happens on it's own terms
on it's own time
and i had such a great fucking line to insert right here
but it has escaped me
left me
slowly...
and i am here
alone with life happening slowly.