Saturday, June 12, 2010

i bought a radio at an estate sale today

it's an old zenith
with tubes inside...
it takes about 60 seconds for it to warm up
before it plays
it sounds wonderful
giving life to my walls
crackle
hiss
i had to use a piece of wire, to
fashion an antenna
crackle
i love my new radio
crackle
hiss
hmmmmmmm...





Tuesday, June 8, 2010

sometimes

when i'm talking on the phone
with my mother
we will get disconnected due to my poor cell phone signal
i will immediately call her back
it will usually be busy...
i will call again-
busy-
again-
busy-
sometimes,
this takes a few tries...
when i finally do get through to her,
she will ask me, "what happened"
and i will have to explain to her-
again
that i dropped the call...
she is nothing short of confused, every time-
i can picture her on the other end;
not sure what to do?
not sure if she should hang up?
continue to talk?
wait?
call back?
you would think that after 15 years
of me owning a cell phone
she would have the hang of it by now...

fuck
you would think that after 15 years
i would just accept it...
move on...
get a different provider...
i don't know

whatever.
it's june 2010
i have a blog
and i'm trying to post something...
i don't have any hott shit to tell you about
no drugs
or needles
or hookers
no fires
no fights
no guns
i'm in my 30's
white
boring
except for maybe sneaking in to buildings...

it's a work night
an early night
too many calories
too much sleep
not enough prayers
or blessings
poor cell phone coverage
an old mother
with bad hearing
bad bones
poor health
and an impatient son...

sometimes
all the time
anytime

fuck...

Thursday, June 3, 2010

thursday

blogging with nothing to say
a little older
a little less relevant
slightly heavier
more afraid
i have known more god
seen more evidence of god
thursday
filled with doubt
pride
ego
laughter
madness
11:33
more vulnerable
hostile
praying for mercy
understanding
help
hope
anything, really
i have been alone
been in pain
been aware
ignorant
self absorbed
self assured
self obsessed
hurting
crying
laughing
fucking
fuck
thursday
11:35
:36
37
3
8
blogging

thursday...

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

it's june

fuck
i have 36 posts this year...
pretty typical:
start a blog
post like hell, and
then the numbers fall off
quickly
but hey man
this isn't my first one
or my second one
i'm running out of shit to say
and flickr gives me somewhere to put my photos
pictures of detroit
fuck
it's june 2nd 2010...

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

i was at a party awhile back...

and the host was showing off his fireplace surround
hand carved by an italian artist
the artist was actually flown in
just for this project
put up in a 5 star hotel
2 months- he chiseled
carved-
cut- his way through the stone
one solid piece of quartz
so large in fact
that it had to be helicoptered in, while
the house was still under construction
too large to fit through any opening
they lowered it through the roof, before
it was sealed off, of course...

now,
how i managed to be at this party is another story
for another time
and having said all of that;
i am pretty impressed with myself
when i have to take one of my doors off of the hinges
in order to move an appliance inside of the house
no helicopter
or italian artist
just me
and a dolly
and a friend...